Aisha woke with her flint gripped tightly in her right hand, the feeling of rising water lapping at her knees instead of her feet. She felt about for the oil lamp she stashed above her head in the cave wall. Finding it, she struck the flint against the rock and lit the lamp's wick, river water now rising past her thighs. She secured the scroll case further up the cave wall and climbed upwards away from the salt water.
Tides. She remembered her father teaching her how the Moon pulled the waters of the ocean towards her in a perpetual dance. If she was close enough to the ocean to feel the tides, the need to find a way upward was even more dire than she originally thought. Following the river's currents as it wound its way to the sea would lead only to death.
She turned towards the river and held her lamp upwards to examine the cave ceiling, cold water swirling about her waist, but she found only rock worn smooth by the ebb and flow of the tides. readjusting her position, she climbed a little farther upwards, making sure to keep her precious scroll case out of the water. She remained there until the water started to recede.
When was the last time I saw a passage leading off from the river?
The journey through the caves lay cloudy in her mind. As hard as she tried, she could not bring to mind any other passageways, at least not any in the last few sleeps. She could not go back to the holy lake under the temple now with only one small meal remaining.
I did not starve above in the temple, and I will not starve to death here. I have eaten more and better since I entered these caves than I ever did while I lived in its walls. If I must be hungry for a few days, I will. But I will not go back.
She glanced down, looking for the food she put aside before she slept, but it was gone, carried away by the tidal currents. At her feet her map of the deep waters fluttered in the current, bleeding faint trails of ink and charcoal into the river. She wedged her lamp into the rocks above before reaching beneath the surface to fish out the soggy parchment.
She spread the parchment out on the rocks to dry and examined the map. All place names were washed away, leaving only the faded smudges of lake, river, and coastline. She traced the line of the river once again, trying to find a way out that was not the ocean.
There. At the very edge of where river and ocean met was a faint line, thinner than a hair, leading from the river to a small village, the name lost to the river's currents. I must be close now. She followed the line with her index finger, and in the process removed what remained of her planned route.
Panic rose in her throat, causing her to choke back sobs.
What if it isn't a way out? What if it is only a line left by the water? Was there ever a line?
Does it matter if there is? I have nowhere else to go but forward. Death may lie ahead, but it is certain to lie behind me. I cannot stop. I will not stop.
I am the last of the Queens of Adyll, a daughter of the Goddess. I must go on, For my mother, for my father, for my sister Nasreen. For the people of Adyll. For myself. There may be no way out. There may be only the ocean's waves to greet me. But my grandsire Thought lived among those waters, and if they take me, I will be happier than I was captive among the Locusts, for I will be with my sweet Nasreen and my mother and father in the bosom of the Lady.
She felt the water around her legs change from cold to warm as the current righted itself.
I have half a day until the water reaches this height again. Six hours until it reaches it lowest point. I can swim if I need to, the wax will hold. I must believe it will hold. She strapped the scroll case across her shoulders, and took her lamp in hand, stowing the flint in her pocket. Leaving the map behind, she stepped down off the wall, her feet finding purchase on what was once the shore of the river. She tamped down another round of panic as she felt the water come up to her chest, buoying up the case on her back. The wax will hold.
She took her first step forward, lamp held high above her head to light her way. The single flame reflected back from the surface of the river, sending rippling patterns of light onto the ceiling and the rock wall she used to mark the shallowest part of the river. The water lifted her, and the current propelled her forward with each step into the darkness and whatever lay beyond.
I will not stop until I am dead or I am free.